But I Have To Say Good-bye - - Angel and Janae.

[KenzieRain♥]

and I know that it’s not fair for me to feel this way, but I’m gonna love you… but I have to say good-bye.

The brunette clung to chase, tears slipping from her eyes and rolling down her cheeks. Matt and Katrina were in the other room discussing God knows what. Katrina was an exgirlfriend, she loved him. Kay could tell by the way she looked at him. Of course we know she’s actually really oblivious about how others feel. But it was completely obvious in Matt and Katrina’s case. She buried her face in Jace’s chest, biting her lip to keep back the sobs that racked her body. Why did this always happen to her? Why couldn’t someone else feel heartache for once? Why did she always choose the wrong guy? Who would be the right one? Was their a right one?

Too many questions filled her brain and when Jace started to whisper to her, the questions were crushed by more questions. How come she felt so attracted to Jace? Why wasn’t she with him? Why hadn’t she noticed her attraction before? Why not? Kay’s lip began to bleed and her grip tightened on her best friend. She wasn’t very good at finding answers but one answer was simple; was clear: She wasn’t with Jace because they had always been best friends and that would never change no matter what happened. He didn’t feel the same about her so she should just dismiss these feelings immediately. But she couldn’t. She couldn’t help but imagine his lips on hers… the way it felt. So right but so wrong.

“I love you…” she mouthed, knowing he wouldn’t see it and wouldn’t notice. Why did everything have to be so difficult? She ended up crying for a different reason… not because her boyfriends beautiful girlfriend and shown up, but because she couldn’t be with her boyfriend brother.

[AngelMarie♥]

I walked around the kitchen in a small circle, thoughts bouncing off the walls of my head. My head throbbed. I was hurt by what Katrina had said. I felt truly conflicted at the moment. Kay or Katrina? I felt the need to choose Kay over anyone at the moment.

Kay! Where had she gone? I remembered her and Jace had wandered off. The bathroom door was open a little, and the light was on. I pushed the door open further.

Kay had her arms wrapped around Jace. What the hell was going on here? I stepped towards them and reached my arms out to Kay. "Kay, I'm sorry. I had no idea she was going to be here." I touched her shoulder. "I didn't know she would make you upset..."

I didn't know what else to say. All I wanted to do was hold her and tell her I was sorry a million times. I tried to take her from Jace's arms to hug her, but was unsuccessful.

"What the hell?" I was thoroughly confused about the whole situation. I was still trying to absorbed what Katrina had said. I heard my phone ring from the other room. Not looking towards the sound, I ignored the call and continued to stare at my new found brother and girlfriend.

[JanaeClaire♥]

She started to cry harder, and I tightened my grip around her, smoothing her hair. I hated seeing her so upset. More than anything, I just wanted her to be happy. Even if it shattered my heart, I needed my Kay to be happy. "It'll be okay." I whispered gently to her. It was then everything went from getting better, back to worse. Matt walked in. I looked away and clenched my jaw. She could go to him now. She would probably be happier in his arms. And then something happened.

She didn't go to him, even when he tried to hold her. I felt guilty for the triumph I felt, my heart swelling. I held her tightly to my chest and looked to Matthias. "Hey, back off okay?" said to him, looking him in the eyes identical to mine. "Just leave her alone."

ooc: FAILPOST. D8

[KenzieRain♥]

Maybe it was sick of her but Kay tightened her grip around Jace when Matt tried to take her away. She felt a certain security in her best friend’s arms that she just hadn’t seen or felt in her boyfriends. Matt was angry at her for basically betraying him but she didn’t care… until Jace decided to fight back. Her tears dried into thin air and she turned to glare at Matt, making sure one of Jace’s arms stayed around her waste. He gave her strength, strength she was going to need to hurt someone else; to hurt Matt.

But would he even care if she disappeared from his life forever? Would he give her a second thought? She couldn’t think about that. She had to say the words and get over it. “Matt, I don’t care if you knew she was going to be here or not-“ She stopped for a moment, glancing in the direction a sound; a tune, was coming from. “Just go after her. You’re way too old for me anyway.” Her brown eyes bore into him. She felt confident, happy that she had actually been the one to break up with a guy.

A sudden smile spread across her face, “Jace is the only ongoing guy in my life; he’s my best friend.” Kay leaned against Jace’s chest, “All the other guys walk in and out of doors.”

[AngelMarie♥]

I stood quietly in the doorway, not sure how to respond. My mouth opened, but closed again. I really did like Kay, and cared about her. It wasn't like I was using her. I mean, I didn't feel like I was.

Jealousy stabbed at my heart as Jace kept one arm around her protectively. My mind flashed back to a few moments ago when Katrina stormed out of the house. Maybe I should have kept her here, kept her safe. After all, I knew I loved her.

I was about to apologize again, tell her not to go. I didn't want to be out of her life forever. Kay was a sweet girl. But maybe she had a point. We were a few years apart in age.

I ran a hand through my hair, still not knowing what to say. My phone rang again, saving me. I looked behind me, even thought I knew my phone wasn't right there, then looked back at Jace and Kay with a questioning look on my face.

I looked Jace in the eyes that mirrored my own. I knew he was right for Kay. I finally felt some sort of respect towards him for protecting Kay like he does, and for loving her, even if she can't see it.

"Take good care of her, bro. I know you will." I whispered. Not sure what to say to Kay, I swallowed hard. I knew she'd be here a lot, and there was no way to avoid her. "See you around." I dashed out of the cramped room to find my phone and to see what was so urgent.

[JanaeClaire♥]

I lifted my head and nodded to Matt, knowing full well how seriously I would take his trust. I held Kay close to me as Matt walked out of the room and I lowered my eyes. I just caused the breakup, didn't I? I just made Kay toss out a really, really decent guy. I clenched my jaw and sighed when i heard the front door close. Matt left.

"I'm sorry Kay." I said to her. "This is all my fault..."

FAILPOST. Dx

[KenzieRain♥]

Kay watched Matt go, feeling a part of her leave with him. No, she hadn't loved him but she had felt something. He was going to be important in the long run. She closed her eyes and exhaled, feeling Jace tighten his arms around her she turned to him and gave him a small smile, "If you say that one more time tonight I'll throttle you." She wrapped her arms around his waste and stepped on his feet, her chin on his chest as she looked up at him. Everything was standing out to her now... his gorgeous blue eyes, perfect skin, sexy muscles, the way his hair curled around her fingers... it was home.

Everybody comes and goes, but Jace is constant.

[JanaeClaire♥]

SOOOOO Brit and I had an idea. xD Jace and Kat are gonna run into each other as some point and have a total pity party and be all "whoo, my life sucks 'cause i love someone who doesn't love me" and then they sleep together to make each other feel better. at this point, kat has no clue she's preggo until she has a doctor's appointment and they're all "yer pregnant" and she thinks it's jace's. since jace doesn't even know kay is in love with him, he goes to her all freaked out and strung out and totally high on speed 'cause he was that stressed and dumped everything about sleeping with katt, and then later on katt finds out it isn't jace's. ._. DUN DUN DUUUNNN.

I smiled faintly as Kay turned her beautiful brown eyes to me, her feet stepping onto mine while her chin rested against my chest. Naturally and easily, I wrapped one arm around her while the other caressed the side of her face. "You really are beautiful. You know that?" I reminded her gently. I smiled that winning, half-smile of mine, my eyes shining sadly. Yes. I was hers. I belonged to her. Every time she was hurt or came back, I would be right there waiting for her with open arms. But was she mine? No. No matter how much I wanted her, she would never belong to me. I had to suppress a grim laugh for a moment. After only having one girlfriend that lasted a week and another for barely a month ever since I'd fallen for her back in junior high, she probably thought I was gay or something.

I pressed my lips to her forehead, hoping she hadn't seen all that thought, all that emotion, in my eyes. "I don't think there is a guy on this earth who deserves a girl as amazing as you." I told her truthfully. "We're all to much of douchbags to deserve you, Kaymart."

[KenzieRain♥]

- - you said this was a good idea... ._. - -

Kay closed her eyes for a moment, loving the feeling of his fingers on her cheek. Beautiful? How could he think that about her? Simple, slutty, horrid Kay wasn't beautiful. She was the farthest thing from beautiful. "No, I really don't." She answered, placing her own hand on top of his and re-opening her chocolate eyes. No one was ever this gentle with her, he was the only one in the world that treated her like a queen. He put her ahead of himself and she could see that... and she hated it.We're all to much of douchbags to deserve you, Kaymart. She thought about all of the guys that would have sex with her then throw her away and the guys that were just one night stands. "You're not like that." She whispered to him, biting her lip when his lips touched her forehead. She took advantage of him leaning down and moved her head, pushing up on her tippytoes and pressing lips lightly to his. Kay's eyes were closed but it was obvious she was cherishing the taste of him. When she rocked back on her heels and stared up at him, she gave him a crooked smile. "Oops, I slipped."

[JanaeClaire♥]

I was about to open my mouth and protest against what she said, when suddenly her lips were pressed to mine and my eyes fell shut. My mind went instantly blank, consumed by only the touch of her mouth to mine. I felt every muscle in me relax and light on fire at once, my heart racing to catch up with my whirling head. I let my grip melt over her, tightening but loosening at once if that were possible. I felt so lost in her--and all that was only a moment. Kay pulled away too soon. I left my eyes closed as she rocked back on her heels, but I kept my arms around her. "Oops, I slipped." I could feel my core tremble from the mere feeling of kissing her. I took a deep, shuddering breath before opening my eyes and meeting her brown ones.

"Kay." I breathed. I put my forehead to hers and shut my eyes again and struggled not to let myself melt. Not to let myself totally come undone in her arms. "Why are you kissing me?" I opened my eyes, realizing how that sounded. I gulped and put my hand on her face, fingers splayed across her neck and jaw. "I mean.. why do you want to kiss me?" My blazing blue eyes were on fire as they gazed into hers, mortally confused and in love. Would she see that? There was no way she couldn't see how I was wrapped around her finger more tightly than a vine on a branch.

[KenzieRain♥]

Kay didn't know how to respond to him... she didn't know how to explain why she had kissed him. He didn't look angry or upset with her at all, which was probably why she did what she did next. Instead of answering his question she pressed her lips to his again, harder this time and filled with want. There was a hole in her chest where her confidence had once been and it hurt. It was a seperate hurt from when she had broken up with her other boyfriends but still, there was the pain that she wanted to fill. She was filling it with Jace.

She let her fingers tangle in his hair and tighten into fists as she crushed him closer to her, moaning and letting her eyes shut. She wanted to know everything was going to be okay... and though she Jace told her she couldn't feel it. Maybe she was a sex addict but atleast she was doing it with Jace and not some murderous freak.

[JanaeClaire♥]

I didn't even have time to think before her lips were crushed to mine again. It was as if every single thought had been erased from my mind and all there was was Kay. I wrapped my arms tightly around her and pressed myself to her. My fingers raked through her hair and held her head as I kissed her. Hard. It was if all this pent-up passion was being released right then, and I couldn't close up the flood gates. I could feel myself harden, even as I tried hard to stop it I couldn't. I picked her up suddenly and pressed her back against the bathroom wall, my heart racing madly as I parted her lips, begging for entrance. God, how was she able to do this to me? With any other girl, I would have been in complete control, but with Kay? I was careful. Even when I had picked her up I had been hesitant. And now kissing her, I was afraid. Well. 40% afraid. The other 60% seemed like a complete animal need.

I moaned into her mouth when I pressed myself against her, hardening farther. I held onto her silky hair tightly when I pulled away from her mouth and migrated down her jaw and to her throat, kissing her there, teeth grazing the skin. I made my way up and lightly nipped at her earlobe before moving back to her mouth. God, she tasted so good. I pressed tightly against her, and I could feel my member against her. It triggered another primal moan from deep within my chest.

I didn't care if she would never do this with me again, really. She was right now. If she never did again, fine. I'd still love her. She could do whatever she wanted to me and I would never leave her. Not unless she asked me to. But right now, she was doing this with me.

And I was enjoying it.